Now that I've had a week to stew over some things, it's time to type them out.
Just today, I read a friend's blog and boy did it hit like a ton of bricks! In the blog, she talked about things that we hold on to and how we need to let them go and give them to God. I needed to hear that so much today that it inspired me to update my own blog.
As many of you know, I am pregnant (10 weeks Saturday to be exact). Ever since Josh and I found out, I can't even begin to tell you the things that have gone through our minds, were told to us, and were talked about. Many of you know me and know that I have no problem speaking my mind. Recently, however, Josh and God are the only ones hearing what I think.
As humans, we are quick to accuse, quick to worry, quick to point fingers, and quick to speak. We are also, however, slow to forgive, slow to listen, and slow to LET GO. Recently I have found myself getting lost in my thoughts, frustrations, worries and fears. I have a huge fear of being a mommy. Not the physical stuff, but the emotional and spiritual stuff. On another note, when you are pregnant, you are more emotional. I understand this, but don't begin to downplay what I am about to say. I'm frustrated with some people. I'm mad at some people. I'm scared and holding on to things that shouldn't even matter. Many of this is amplified because of my hormones, but either way, it is there.
After I read Jess's blog, I realize that I am not letting go and allowing God to grant me the peace that He so desperately desires to give me. Many times I feel like I can control things by myself. It's humbling when you realize that you can't. There have been many humbling moments this week.
On a lighter note, Josh and I couldn't be happier. Although we are somewhat scared, as many new parents are, we are thrilled at the thought that in 7 months we will be holding our own little bundle of joy!
