Last year-
Exactly a year ago, I was worrying about Carter not walking, turning one (already?!?!) and being short. Ha! The things we worry about as moms! There were other concerns and new steps as a family that we had and were taking. Josh began a new job exactly a year ago yesterday. Uncertainty seems to make us uneasy, excited and thankful, but uneasy. I also began a new job. While I was excited, I was worried. Worried about Carter being in school for the first time. Worried about teaching and still keeping up with my "Momma" duties. Worried "Can I really be a teacher?"
Yes, if you can't tell yet, I was/am a worrier. Stressed doesn't begin to touch it :)
This year-
This year has presented it's own worries. A new baby?!? How in the world will I be able to _______?? I've filled in the blank a million times. New house? Yes or No? Now or Later? Wreaths are coming out of my ears and laundry is piling up. Dinner needs to be cooked and all I want to do is rest.
While this year has its own worries and concerns, over the last year I have taken to heart some scripture and "advice" that my grandmother loves to give. Content. Be content. Use what you have. Don't be greedy. Worry? Why worry?? What good will it do you? I'm not saying that I don't worry from time to time, but I don't let it consume me like it use to. I was rather proud of myself a week or so ago in a conversation with Josh. He asked why I wasn't saying anything and I replied "well, I'm not worried. I'm content with where I am and I'm not worried." Props to my husband, he is NOT a worrier. So I think he was a little suprised.
You can't out plan God. Not even me :) You can't put Him in a box and take Him out when you want Him. Who am I to worry? He takes care of so much, why not me too? So this year, I'm not worried about this baby, school, work etc. (or I'm trying) I worry/strive to do God's will. My ultimate goal should be being a better Christian. Not school, not a new house, not a job. I'm not saying that those things aren't important, but I truly believe that if I follow Him, and put Him first in my decisions, everything will turn out fine. If it doesn't? I'm still relying on Him to get me through because isn't He better off in control?
Be blessed today and try not to worry :) it only takes time and adds wrinkles!
