Full Custody

So, I have many things that I want to say, and I have written line after line and can't seem to begin this blog with a profound statement that I feel is worthy of "the first line."

I realize that many people may not read this, but sometimes it is beneficial for me to write. (or type, as the case may be)

This week has been one of depression and realization. Let me start by telling you how absolutely wonderful my Wednesday night women's Bible study is. We are studying Phillipians at the moment, and I have been so blessed by different comments and scriptures that are shared each week. It's funny how God knows what we NEED to hear, maybe not what we WANT to hear. This past week we talked about anger, and the fact that Paul, while in jail and after being beaten, was still able to praise God through his struggles and pursue the furthering of God's word. Ok....let's stop right there. I said IN JAIL......and PRAISE. How many times do we praise God when things are NOT going our way? I'm sure we question Him, but do we praise Him. After all, He knows what is best for us and will always provide for us. Anyway! Statements were made about God's disipline for His children and about anger and frustration. (Quoting Tricia) "God wants to have full custody, not just visitation on the weekends." Statements were also made that God will protect us, but that does not mean we won't go through difficult times. If we were shielded from difficult times and never had to struggle, everyone would want to be a christian simply for the fact that they would want to be protected. Not because they love God.

With that being said, things have happened this week where I have struggled but still managed to make myself try to get in the habit of praising God through the frustrations and the anger.

This week, I feel that by letting God in to every aspect, emotion and situation, (even if you are having to force yourself), is a step in the right direction. By being a part of everything in my life, I strive to live my life for Him.

I have more to say, but I am going to put it in a different post....please take the time to read it too!!!